Thank you to all those who cared, I'm fine (: Really.
Like Maria, Samuel, Clau, Pinky, Sam ... yups. I appreciate very much your attentiveness and concerns. Im overwhelmed with gratitude. (:

Things haven been going well with me and my family. Just.. alot of problems.. which I know I shouldnt rant right here.
Just want to say that,
I've limited myself with many activities to spend time at home. This quiet place where only my dogs speak. I know you all are upset with me. You know Im feeling at my worst each day?
I have got things to settle in school, i have got trainings to attend. And they all end late and even when it does, I've already made it a point to inform.
Hey. I need my social life too.. Im your daughter, but i am only human.
I know my limits, I can differentiate whats right from wrong, I need my private life too.

Blame it for living in such a big house.
I dont see you and you dont see me.
Even for my brother who sleeps next door.
I HARDLY SEE HIM ALRIGHT.
When im home, you are not. when you are home, I'm not.
When WE are home, we are on different levels.
WHAT is it?? You have your work to stress with, thats why I dont bother you at all. I know you love me, I know everyone loves me.
But I dont feel your love, really. Its hard for me to accept your arguments and uptightness with me when its injustice.

Ever since that day, I've been really moody everyday you know that. I dont know why is it that i always feel you hated me, and dote on my brothers more. Because for my whole lifetime, I'm always the one getting shouted right to my face at, getting all the blames at and all the lecturings.

Was it really me? I dont believe Im such a bad egg you know. Oh.. maybe Im just the black sheep of the family. I guess this is what you probably feel.

Anyway, I swear to God I never rebelled with you before. I never once talked back to you and everything, I go with your wishes. How come Im not being appreciated here...
God knows.