♥ Tuesday, December 21, 2004
turn bck time...
he's leaving on the day im coming back.. that is our fate...it had long ended...i missed him...i still do...but why??? i hated him more den anything else in this world dont i?? i swear i did...
why...why do i still care or him?? why...do i still visit his hi5 n frenster everyday?? why can i still remember his hp no? why does my feet still brings me to his place?? why am i still remembering every moment with him??...
he toiled with my feelings...he played with my body.. he lied to my eyes... he scarred my life...he bruised every inch of me...
im tattered....im torn...i became so delicate...sensitive..so brittle...
but part of me just wanna hold him in my arms...still wanna hug him...still wanna see him lets just say for the last time...im gonna start cryin again... im confused..i feel realli helpless... each time a guy asked me tt qns.." liked u alot...can u gimme a chance?" i hated this qns.. every thoughts of him came racin through my mind...i just shivered..becuz...i realised...he is still livin..silently inside of me..he is not dead as i've imagined..i carn forget him..i carn let others have me!! once bitten...twice shy..im not gonna trust anymore guys ever..i had my last meal.
im sorry..ivan. u're nice...but..if u have read this...i hope u understand..y i ignored..y i didnt bother.. n other guys too...those..*..leave me alone....... i not interested...im not any subs for ur ex..my pic may deceive u as a "cute" "chio" lil ass..but imma tellin ya now..im not. im not nice to mess with.. i love my gal pals for my life! my mr.right will be when i graduate den say..
Blogged @ Tuesday, December 21, 2004